~Return to Oz~

A script for the drama has been chosen  and I am so excited and pumped up! Especially for the costume designs and make-up!!

Return to Oz is Patrick's - my class monitor - version of "The Wizard of Oz" mixed with the Broadway musical "Wicked". Omygosh..the costume and make-up is going to be wicked cool. I can't believe being in the stage crew is going to be super exciting!!

=')

I know people always say boys are predictable and that they are simple creatures, but how do you find out their predictability and understand their simplicity? I mean, if I knew all that sooner, I wouldn't be suffering, desperate and single, again.
I think that talk about boys being predictable and simple creatures are an expert sluts understanding.
Still, why are boys so egoistic? Are they're testosterones so high and they're mind set so hypocrite until they won't want to be honest with anyone? C'mon la guys...not all of y'all are "the perfect specimen". I like guys who are more open with their feelings and honest about themselves even though it's embarrassing.
The only sign that you're in love is when you don't hide yourself from your partner and you tell them whatever that's making you upset. It's not all about the fun time and the intimate connection.

Clarify...

"Everything is always clearer when you tell the truth and open up, instead of bottling up and lie."
- Emma

I couldn't believe it when he told me e was looking for me when I was SMK Siburan. OH MY GOSH!!! He even said he missed me =3 so sweet
I feel more comfortable when he clarifies things up. It makes me less paranoid, jumpy and depressed. He always has this sort of soothing energy that makes you feel like everything will be fine.

Absolute Disappointment!!!

ERGH!!! I'm so mad! ISH!! I really wish I didn't go for the debate yesterday. Terlepas Peluang seeing  Harrison again. So KECEWA la...D'= Dah la Hazel said she saw him yesterday and said he got bulky.  ERRRGHHH!!!!!!!!! I miss him so much la!

*Sigh* but ada-ada jak he secara tidak sedar ruin my plan to berbaik with him. Yesterday, dah 4 times secara tidak langsung ruin my mood. BAAAAAAAAAAAAABIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Apa la my life this one?! When I no mood to berbaik with him, he berbaik with me. When I have mood to berbaik with him, he don't want to berbaik with me. Macam no chance la!!!!!!!!

Heart's Confusion

Oh my gosh, I'm so confused!
Just as I logged in to Facebook earlier, I got a notification saying Harrison is "in a relationship" but it didn't say with who.
*Sigh* I really don't want to believe that he has found someone else and hopefully not someone as worse as I was. OH MY GOD, I don't know what to think!! I want to say that I'm happy he's found someone else but I won't be sincere because I don't want him to find someone else, especially if that someone was better than me - or secretly worse than me. ARGH!?!?  I'm arguing with myself, again.
Why did this have to happen?! I already planned to contact him, again, tonight. F*CK SH*T!!!!!!!!!!! Every time I want to do something like contact him just to say 'Hi =)' and be friendly, he always has something that makes my plan fall apart!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Loss of Words

The debate competition was this morning and our first opponents were from SMK Batu Lintang. I can say we put up a good fight against them even though I was disappointed by our school's 2nd and 3rd speaker. The points that they presented on 'Reality shows gives bad influence to society' were not like we planned. They sort of sucked at it. But I don't blame on one of them since he was stuttering and was always nervous. That is why SMK Batu Lintang won this round.
They were so cool and confident and they had a really strong point opposing the motion. What I found hilarious was the third speaker, Abel Lim. Gosh, he talked with - as Stephanie said - great "poise", a fake British accent and a pondan-ish tone. But he was REALLY good. I don't think I could measure up to him even though he said we were really good.
Sure gonna be hard facing him when we go for the Drama competition. I heard he was voted best actor for 3 years and he had a great voice for singing. Gonna be really tough to beat.

Tomorrow Debatin'

Tomorrow's the "big" Debate Competition at SMK Siburan. Who am I kidding?!?!? The Swinburne University Debate Tournament is BIGGER than this sh*t. Dah la jadi 2nd speaker, maka the debate in SMK Siburan I'm just the reserve and I'm already freaking out! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
Good grief, Swinburne gave us 10 themes to study before they tell us what to debate about. Fak U!!!
Sometimes I think the essay competitions, debate tournaments and speech writing contests are just shortcuts for adults to solve whatever problem they have. Ugh..f*ck the government and higher authorities.
Wish me luck inhabitants of Earth.

The Lost Valentine

The Lost Valentine is actually a movie I once saw last year. It's about an eighty-something year old woman who waits every Valentine's Day for her missing/dead husband who went to war 60 years ago.
It doesn't sound as romantic or as touching but it does live up to it's title; having to wait for your missing army husband every Valentine's Day at a train station where you last saw him. Hehh..I once thought I was going to be that same kind of person; to wait for Harrison whenever he'll be away if he ever gets in the army. But I don't think I should think about hat kinda stuff any more, seeing that we're over.
Earlier at church, my old Sunday school teacher said it may be better if Harrison and I were just friends, seeing at how her daughter's experience was with this other sensitive, touchy guy who broke off because they were too far away from each other. And when I really thought about it, it was true; he and I are best as friends.
Hehe..maybe I should do what Arine would do; be friends, no dating, then get married.
=P

Double Betrayal

It's a title of my short play that I'm writing right now. Without realising it, the play is actually like a double betrayal I got from Harrison. The so-called "betrayal" I got from him is actually our double break-up.
It's about a girl who is in a deep relationship with this charming guy and they are so in love with each other, or so the girl thought. After a while, the girl found out the guy has been cheating on her this whole time and intends to kill him. Then, the guy was murdered by the girl.
Soon after, the guy's friend who has a crush on the girl asks her to be his girlfriend and the girl accepted. The two were like soul mates. Until, he found she killed his best friend.
At the end of the play, the second guy invites the girl to a private date at a park during the night. The two danced for a while and when she spun herself back into his arms, he stabs her in her stomach.
The End (?)

Debate and Drama

Debate and drama; two things that are going in my after school activity. Debate; my teacher chose me for both the Inter-school and Swinburne competition. Drama, on the other hand, was voluntary since it wasn't announced openly to the entire sesi pagi. Not to mention my English essay assignment given to me by my Form 2 English teacher to publish in the school magazine. Good gosh, I just remembered I had my Chemistry and Moral assignments I hadn't started.
Urgh, everything is making me bonkers! Everything is everywhere!
Excessive school-related work and activities should be classified as mental and psychological abuse. I can see why the world is full if shitty and crappy people in the world; they're all stressed by other people in their past who were stressed.
My life is really full of debate (arguments) and drama.