DanceParty!!

So, my class have some extra cash in our class budget. We were thinking of making a class party but everyone sort of complains about location and extra money. I think they are so fussy and I think that 'party' would be boring because it's just between ourselves.But when I saw our after PMR agenda, we have a Graduation Day, which I didn't know Form 3 would have. Then I thought, Why not have a Form 3 dance rather than make a small class party. We could have a dance after the Graduation Day at night. Enjoy one more night together before most of us will go to other schools.

Have our own entertainment, pump up some crazy club music, dance to the freaky beats, mingle and enjoy the food. Everybody has got to agree to this! I mean, what's more fun that a 'club' themed party? I know every minor wants to know what it feels like. So why not, do it amongst people our own age? I think it's totally LEGAL.  But to make this work, we need cooperation with the other classes. So, any class with class money or classes that agree to pay some extra could have it. We can't pay for all ten classes and have only half the Form 3 to come. Total wastage. So anyone who wants to come, please cooperate. I'm so sure the party would be a thriller if everyone cooperates.

That's so cute..

Peek-a-boo, I see you :3

Snuggle-wuggle

I <3 my teddy =D

Hello World!

Look to the Future

What am I going to do? Before everything, all I wanted was to be the greatest fashion designer ever. I wouldn't let anyone tell me what to do or have anyone standing in my way. But now, considering the fact that I have a boyfriend makes me have second thoughts. Before him, my thoughts were usually on my friends. Wether we'll get to spend the rest of our school years together or not. I was so afraid I'd be left alone at the same school while my closest friends move somewhere else. Afraid that everyone wouldn't accept me like they did. After a while, I did think of going to a different school, too. I was glad at first, but then came along that one perfect guy. The guy I won't ever consider to stay away from. Because of him, the decision is getting harder by the day. I was always waiting for some kind of 'thing' that would make me stay at where I am just so I could be with him. At one point there was and it made happy I could be with him more. And then I thought, I can't depend on this guy forever. I'm a strong, independent woman and I have dreams that I want to realize. I can't devote my entire life to him. Just love him =D Well, I haven't fully decided yet but my thoughts are still on going to another school. I just hope that everything will work out well.

Nothin' to do with you

Just so my parents know, Harrison was never a problem. They made it into a problem. If only they had just butt out of my personal business then they wouldn't see it as a problem. Like, f*ck off!! He isn't a problem. I would've asked him to help me with school stuff but how could I?? You keep complaining about him which makes me feel uncomfortable talking to him. You make me feel like I'm gonna face a death sentence for every word I say to him. Why can't you guys just leave me alone? The wrong you did while raising me can't be reversed. I'm stubborn and I change for no one.

Shout to Daddy

**FUCK OFF**

Yeah... Fuck off, Dad! If you're not proud of me, don't try to. And don't even try to point fingers at who should be more shameful. If people had to choose between you or me, I bet yours would be the "winner". Y'know why? For one, you have three kids who needed you but you got so busy trying to take care of someone else's kid. Second, you're married and yet you keep a mistress and you even showed her off in front of your own family. And third, you gave me all the advice you had but not follow them yourself. That's why I don't listen to much of your advices. Also because you give crappy advice and it was as if you never supported my interests and dreams. You tell me I could do the things I couldn't do but not the things I loved to do.

You're the crappiest dad in the world... Don't get mad at me for saying all this. Look in the mirror and admit your mistakes before you tear me to pieces. The more you get mad and shout at me, the more you're making me hate you. You keep saying it's hopeless to try and talk to me. Well, you just didn't know how and I know you LOVED giving up on me. 

Wish You Were Here...

Die and Live Another Day

I feel..SO frustrated! I mean, these past few months has been all about him. I can't get him out of my head! At first, it was nice to always think about him because he happened to be "the love of my life" but now, he's like a pest constantly floating in my head. I have a huge guilt, y'know. Like when I tell him about something that makes me upset, he's the one who gets extra upset and respond as if I was the bad guy! C'mon man, you're suppose to comfort me!! Not me comfort you!
I really feel like I just want to cry and scream at him. I'm actually crying right now :'( Whenever I'm near him, I just want to CRY! I want to cry because all this time, it's as if I'm forbidden to cry in front of him. I'm always afraid that he will upset me more because I always know that he will find a way to just put some blame on me. He just doesn't realise he's making me more upset.
It's really hard to try and talk to him. I don't think we've had a real conversation in a while. He doesn't talk to me like he used to. I missed those times, and now...it's all gone. Everything is GONE...even the love I've had for him. It hurts me when I had to tell him 'I love You' when I'm really crying my tears out saying those three little words.
PS I cried my heart out typing this. I hope you'rereading, Harrison :(