Humiliatingly bold

I'll cut to the chase, I just sent a stupid relationship request to my ex through Facebook. It's a stupid move I saw on a TV show called Awkward. If rejects it, then I'll be thinking to myself "so what? I was just goofing around" but if he somehow by heaven's power accepted the request, then I will be speechless.

Romance in Novels, Romance in Movies and Romance in Reality

The big difference between love and romance:-

• Love - a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person
• Romance - a love affair, especially an intense and happy but short-lived affair involving young people; traditionally, a literary work depicting heroic deeds (in short, similar to a story of knights rescuing princesses)

But which would you prefer, love or romance? Obviously, love in real life and romance in fictional stories.

Alas, I can feel no genuine affection for anyone nor I believe that anyone would possess true affections towards me. Thus, I indulge myself in romantic movies and novels whose heroes and heroines find their true love in short of a time and the story line going accordingly to satisfy the readers' and viewers' expectations, unlike reality where nothing goes accordingly and carries no guarantee of sweet happy endings but bitter ends.

Isolated from romantic affections and depressed because of it for so long a time, I've finally regained some romantic fantasies - excluding illicit desires - from a classic novel (Jane Eyre) about a plain young woman who fell in love with and loved in return by her stern, harsh employer. Another novel (Vampire Kisses), a modern work quite humorous despite the heroine being of vampiric and Gothic nature. In the first book, she is a much ostracized teenager because of her looks but finds true love in another much ignored soul of her own kind. Sadly, at the end of the book, he leaves abruptly without an explanation - except a note written with 'Because I love you'.

In both books, never once did I not cry when the memories of my rejection and dejection were brought up by the similarities of the story and mine.

Things that happened in November - in bullet list form

• 2nd Nov - went to the Hitz Birthday Invasion and came out sweating and tired like I had ran a marathon in my sleep. I discovered that I liked the local bands like Relent and Daytime Drama but I least liked Arabyrd because she was like an annoying Malaysian version of Nicki Minaj - and I hate Nicki Minaj. Other than that, Greyson Chance's voice started to change which made me not enjoy his perfomance but he still did a really awesome performance of Leila
• 5th Nov - no school but spent the whole day in extra class with Miss Angie to finish our Physics syllabus.
• 7th Nov - broke up with my 2nd ex
• 8th Nov - last day of school and it kind of sucked because I was sort of alone in class without Amy.
• 12th Nov - first day of everyday music class - for practicing purposes. Saw Harrison being reckless when he spotted me on the side of the road by not looking at road while riding a motorcycle. I had an awesome haircut, anyway.
• 14th Nov - "It's complicated" with my 2nd ex
• 19th Nov - celebrated birthday with an all-meat dinner while my left ear goes deaf
• 20th Nov - re-painted nails and applied 3D nail stickers, then "broke up" with 2nd ex