~Me~

Been obsessed with books and writing since I was 8 years old. Then I lost it when I pursued writing in college. Now, I'm trying to find that drive again.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Article: Cause of Stress among Teenagers


This is what my oral is supposed to be and what I will present tomorrow. I'm only posting it so that other people who have assignments with this particular title can have an idea on how to write their assignments =)
                                                                                                                                            

Generally, stress is a term often used when someone feels overloaded with pressure. It is also the body’s reaction to changes that requires sudden physical, mental or emotional adjustments. Among teenagers, stress is often caused by social or academic pressure as well as their condition at home.
            One of the most emphasized times of a teenager’s life is their life as a student. Students usually pressure themselves into studying harder because they aim for a higher grade in exams and want to impress their teachers. Moreover, they study hard also because it is an academic demand as they may be able to graduate with distinction. Also, students pressure themselves to excel in their extra-curricular activities as the achievements in these activities are able to give prominence to the students’ reputation in the future. Other than that, excessive school work assignments such as daily homework as well as forgotten homework due to packed schedule and important projects with deadlines contribute to the given pressure on the student causing them to experience unnecessary stress.
            Another cause of stress among teenagers would be the imbalance in their social being. Nowadays, a situation where a teenager is caught in peer pressure is a by-product of their desire to fit in among other teenagers. A teenager becomes stressed when given the pressure to decide whether to follow or disregard a certain trend which will save them a spot in a certain social group. In the event of the teenager giving in to the peer pressure, the teenager will later on waste time and energy improving and maintaining that social status to show that they fit in that social group. What is more, teenagers feel stressed when they are emotionally exhausted trying to find the time to spend between their significant other and friends.
            Lastly, the condition of the teenager at home can affect their academic performance and social attitude outside the home. One of the factors of the teenager’s negative attitude would be arguments between family members. These arguments are often triggered by financial problems, sometimes lack of responsibility at home and lack of tolerance among siblings. In some cases, teenagers will feel stressed when they have siblings whom have their own academic and social problem as well as parents going through separation or divorce.

STRESS

I have no words to describe how distress I am about the things I have to do this week and what I've been facing.
Coincidentally, I'm writing my oral test about the cause of stress among teenagers. So far, I've only been able to complete the part where school is the biggest distress in a student's life. But I have no clue how to elaborate on social problems being the cause of stress, because I virtually don't have a social life. I would continue on about family problems being one of the cause of stress but recently, I haven't had much of a conflict with them.
Though, I do have a little problem with my boyfriend. At some point, he's a big sweetheart with a bad temper but other times, he's like a playboy asshole. He has this weird sudden change in mood and personality. It really makes me uncomfortably whenever he decides to call. I sometimes stress myself about it but I try hard not to.
These are not my only problems. I have many other school related problems that I wouldn't want to mention.

Friday, July 13, 2012

Missing a Stranger

I still don't know much about my mystery boyfriend. Just that he's a lot like Harrison from the past; funny, sweet, open-minded, overly romantic, macho and many other things. I find it sweet and romantic that he wants to call me every night. And I feel happy when he laughs after listening to my laugh. When he calls, I had a million things in my mind that I want to say out to him, but I forget them completely when I hear his beautiful voice.
I really miss him right now. He hasn't called me in two days. I shouldn't worry about it, too much. I mean, he's a grown man. He can take care of himself. But then, I feel all helpless because I'm younger than he is and we live far apart. Gosh, I feel empty not hearing his voice.

Sayang!!! I miss you!

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

new honey bunny

It's only been a day I've been with this guy. Worse yet, I don't know him and he doesn't know me. I don't even think our "relationship" is a serious one. It's boring when we're on chat but interesting when we're on the phone. He sounds sweet and nice enough but unfortunately, he sounds and acts like Harrison. As of now, he's like an older and more kampung-guy version of Harrison.
I would like to take this whole thing seriously but I don't think he does. So now, it's hard for me to lower my hopes and expectations of him.

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Giving Back

I've been thinking about it for a long time now. But I'm still not sure if I really want to give back all the stuff Harrison ever gave me. I don't wear them yet they're still precious to me. But when  I try to think back on the sweet and special memories, all I could think of was why he left me. It hurts thinking about it now. It hurts wondering why that one moment of sadness and hate can destroy the many happy and sweet moments.
It doesn't seem to matter anymore, anyway. I'm just going to give them back; two necklaces, an earring, one phone tag and two rings. But I'm only going to keep the poem he gave me on our first date. Poetically speaking, his poem has a part of his heart.

My Dinner =P

I was bored and alone and hungry so I made my own dinner. It's actually a fish and chips garnished with garlic and scrambled eggs and mayonnaise on the side. I know, it's weird for me to eat at night since fish and chips is breakfast food. Well, I only know how to cook breakfast. It's good but I regret putting garlic XP 

Friday, July 6, 2012

Ignored by Blood

Ever since I lost the innocence of a child, I've hated my life and everything that came along with it; the extra open-minded knowledge. And because of that I'm always ignored by my own family because they think I know everything that's happening. They always expect me to know something without being told. But how was I suppose to know we were going out to dinner or going back to kampung or whatever shit they've come up with. I especially hate it when my mum yells at me about it and says it's my fault I didn't know. Yeah right, you guys were the ones who had you're "secret meetings" every time I leave the room. They disgust me!
However, I've always been ignored no matter where I am or who I'm with. That includes my close friends and best friends.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

No Sleep

In my one week absence, I have piles of laundry to "organize" and piles of Homework from 6 different subjects. Not to mention my lack of energy from the lack of sleep and overtime activities. For some reason, I can't stay awake during the day but I wouldn't take a nap. Since my arrival here I've been sleeping at midnight or past midnight and sleeping for only 3 to 5 hours which isn't enough for me to get rid of these eye bags under my eyes.
I get so frustrated with everything. I almost wanted to quit school because of the shitty teachers and the excessive homework.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

PKBM (U) camping in Kelantan

Exhaustion, disorientation and soreness runs my entire body 24 hrs after my arrival here from Kelantan. The work and acivities during camping was somewhat brutal and tiring but exhilarating and - unexpectedly - enjoyable, despite the punishments doing squats and jumps and push ups. I kind of blame one of the officers who was a racist and an excessive, optimist with his religion. Inconsiderate ass.
The fun activities that enjoyed and endured were the flying fox, jalan lasak, shooting and a trip to the Gong Kedak Air Base. My favorite was going shooting. It was adrenalin pumping and terrifying. Jalan lasak was a bit tiring for me since I had sores, cramps and disturbed emotions during the event. I mean, I know I'm slow but stop cursing and ordering me around because in the end, you guys were the one's left behind and had to ride in the ambulance. Not me.
In the case of social events, I wasn't very social with them during the time for socializing. Though, I enjoyed the company of a few guys from Penang who were nice to me. I liked talking to one of them called Mohd Azraf. He looked like a smoker and a drug addict but he's actually a sweetheart. On our last day there, they all said goodbye to me as if I was a celebrity. I was upset that I didn't know most of their names while they knew mine. It makes me fluttery thinking that I have a "fan club".
All in all, the whole trip made me rethink about PLKN and made a little bit more confident and endurant.