A Little Red Book

For weeks now I've done nothing but video games, Internet and guitar. It feels unbearable with nothing to do, especially when I don't have a cellphone and my cousin is still staying with us. She's a grown woman with a job and has already graduated - why can't she get her ass outta here?! It's been months already and I want my privacy in my room - I already have my sister to share with, I don't think I can handle more particularly if it's my cousin. Worst is she mostly stays in my room when -FYI- I like my privacy particularly in my own room!
She's such a pest! It's like I can't be myself with her around. All she does is always going online 'till late at night and calling her boyfriend almost every night. Sometimes I can't go to sleep 'cos she got clients to call. And so, every night I read a novel I got last year. It's an alternate version of Robin Hood except it has three books and each book is narrated by three different characters. I only have the second one. Funny is I am so fascinated by stories that have anything from old English, even the old style English literature. Most people think it's crap but I love English - the language, I mean. For years I've had A's on English just because I read English novels. That's my little English literature success.

How to be/What makes A True Friend

 Question: How could a freak in a bottle get friends?
Answer: Internet.

My answer, school. Yes, this freak was sent to school t be unfreaked.Well, it didn't work 'cos I'm proud of being a freak just as my friends are proud of being a tomboy and a lilmonster.
Not to offend my friends but it's one of those freaky and weird people that I like to be friends with that makes me even more a freak! That's why I'm always closer to those freaks.
Just so you know, freak is a compliment and normal is an insult. Freak is unique, normal is boring.

Real friends are always true to you and you always wanna be true to 'em. Real friends are always there for you and your always there for them. Real friends want you and you want them. Real friends stand up for you and you stand up for them. Real friends are willing to help and you're willing to help them. Real friends don't expect anything in return and so do you. Also, real friends are who you miss most 'till you cry and vice versa.

Closer To The End

School's almost over and it ain't a party. No school, no freedom. School is where we're away from parental figures. Teachers don't count 'cos they could be way cooler than your own parents.
The atmosphere is like 2012 when the date of year end is getting closer. I don't think I could survive home since I've been doing lots of stuff with friends. At home, it's all chores and nags and that kind of crap. At school, there's trouble-making, gossip, scandals, cases and fun. Western people might think school sucks but in the east we love it 'cos it's our only escape.
On the first few months of school everything is in order and boring but when it's closer to the end school is a disaster are. It don't matter if you bring your cell phones, video cams or whatever your not gonna get caught 'cos nobody cares. Just this week, like 10 people brought their guitars to school including me. But I was the only one with a skateboard.
Unfortunately, my skateboard was a bit busted up and one of my guitar strings snapped
Note-to-self: look after your stuff.

Got Friends, Got...?

I am so frustrated! Sometimes stuck. This is all about some friends of mine, Jo and Tul. I'm not saying they're bad friends but are just so into themselves.
Ever since they were cast out of "the gang" they talk about the same thing over and over. Jo's against LAH and Tul's against FaBoy. These pairs used to be the best of friends until some certain people got in the way and a friend is not always a friend.
Jo and Tul has a lot to say about the pain and backstabbing they have felt. LAH tried to ruin Jo's relationships, told outrageous lies and bragged about stuff she doesn't have. FaBoy just have too many ego in his pants and is just too oblivious 'bout himself. I had to agree about it. I mean, it's all true and lot's of people would've said the same.
My role in all of this is nothing. I'm partly with "the gang" but full on with Jo and Tul. They just don't give much about me 'cos I totally have no connection about their problem.
I hate being different but that's what I do and what I am.

Last of It

Well, today's the last day of my semester test. After that, nothing. No learning, no studying and in the end, no school.

It's hard to believe I said this, I'm gonna miss school. Hanging with friends, no parents to nag at you, some trouble to make and all that. Two weeks and two days left for all of it.

When trying to meet friends out of school, it's really hard. 3/4 of them can't go out 'cos of parents and are scared of going out. School is the only way I could meet those friends. 1/4 just have other friends and yeah, not a lot of people like me. Some are friends with me only 'cos I think they pity me.

I feel pathetic.

At least, I could spend the year-end break doing my own stuff. Guitar, sketch, skateboard and dance. As for friends, I'm taking the same dance class with one of my friends so I won't be totally alone.

What Now?

This is my first post and stuff happen, lots of it. I don't even know where to start.

All I can say now is that in three weeks, school will be over and I will move up to Form 3 next year. My birthday is coming up in those three weeks and I will be both doomed and miserable. Doomed 'cos there's always a family dinner on birthdays and my dad's gonna be around. FYI, I hate him like hell! Miserable 'cos school will already be over before I could hang with friends on my birthday. I wish I had those kind of friends.

If only a Halloween wish could last permanently. I sometimes believe in stuff like that even though I'm a Christian.  I also think that I'm kinda like an agnostic, a person that believes God exist and knows he's all powerful but doesn't have much faith in him. I'm human.
If I could have a wish from God, I would wish to reincarnate as human every time  I die. 'Cos I love being human. I live for balance. Heaven is too  perfect and Hell is too hell. I don't think I could sit still without having a little bit of the two.