~Me~

Been obsessed with books and writing since I was 8 years old. Then I lost it when I pursued writing in college. Now, I'm trying to find that drive again.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

My vampire novel project

I thought of the idea last month when I remembered back about my Vampire Kisses novels. I have the concept, characters, setting and plot in my head but I always have the same problem every time I write: how to start. I debated the idea of using a first person narration or a third person narration and after long consideration, I decided to use first person narrations by the two main characters telling their side of the story in alternate chapters.
In the first chapter, Ophelia, the vampiress, tells the story of how she was transformed into a vampire about a hundred years ago and what happened after she transformed. She also tells about the purpose of her deliberate isolation from the outside world and how she sustains her blood lust while controlling her impulses whenever she is able to. At the end of the chapter, when she tries to feel the warmth of the morning sun, she notices one of the houses close to her area being occupied by a non-local.
In the next chapter, Hayden, the foreign newcomer, expresses his excitement in living in a new town and starting over a new life while leaving behind his past life in a faraway town where he learned a secret about himself that he won't accept. Although he leaves behind the job he loves the most which is working in his father's firearm shop, he decides its better to work in a more tranquil environment as a simple librarian.
There's more excitement to what this book will become despite the prosaic nature of the characters because there's always a hidden twist~

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

What I did from a week ago until today

Its not much but kind of interesting - for me, of course!

Every weekday in November until 3rd Dec I practised for my Grade 3 practical piano exam in the school 'cos I don't own a piano. I wouldn't say it was exhausting but frustrating every time I couldn't hit the right note or get out the right expression and playing the same dumb pieces over and over and OVER. During practise just before I went into the examination room, I played just smoothly but I don't know from what force in hell that made me slip and miss a few notes. After that, I was like 'Whatever. I'll fail if I'll fail'. Hopefully, I didn't fail.
On the 29th Nov, I went to see Arine since she came back to Kuching from Sarikei. I was glad I could meet her after these past months but my mood went down when rain poured while I walked to where we were meeting and my mood plummeted when she brought her younger sister whom she detests so much. Since the place we met at was SUPER boring, we decided to go to OneJaya but it rained, again. Instead, I had the pleasure of entering her house and room for the first time in 3 years we've been friends. Like another friend's house I've been to, its a darker contrast to my house; a mess. Interior designs set aside, we talked and gossiped in her room about "unholy" things which revealed to me the Arine I've never known before; an Arine version of Amy.
30th Dec, that day was the ultimate mood wrecker. The activities: watched Breaking Dawn part 2, had a late lunch/early dinner, window shopping. Friends involved: unmentionable. How it went: horrible. Why?: Charlotte ignored me the whole time even though she was the one who invited me to watch a movie, Arine didn't watch it with me just because she wants to hang around with Lorenzo looking for the latest Lady Gaga perfume that won't be out for 6 months. I hate what they did to me; ignoring me like that. I mean, don't they know any manners? What they did was SO inexcusable and if I were my dad, I would've burst out and told how volcanic mad I was. But I'm not my dad so I had to suck it up. I felt like I wanted to scream 'Don't bother inviting me if you're just going to ignore me later' and 'Say no if you don't want to watch it with me, not invite someone else over so you could avoid it' at the two of them. I just can't believe they're so immature and ill-mannered. Until today, I still feel like I want to blow up when I think back about it. But I can't because they're my "best friends".
To clear out my angst, I indulged in romance novels. One was Jane Eyre which is awesome to the max - minus the difficulty in understanding the big words they used. The other book was Vampire Kisses: The Beginning containing the first three books of the series. I admit that Vampire Kisses is nothing like The Twilight Saga or Vampire Diaries or Vampire Academy because it doesn't have that action-thriller touch but a fantasy, goth romantic, humorous and suspenseful feel. I mean, every time there was a super romantic scene I'd giggle and put the book away for a more special time and if there was a climax in the scene I'd resist reading the next part to prepare myself. To put it simply, its a goth teen's novel-version sitcom.
There, the stuff I did and the expressions I had while doing it. 

Monday, December 3, 2012

Romance in Novels, Romance in Movies and Romance in Reality

The big difference between love and romance:-
  • Love - a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person
  • Romance - a love affair, especially an intense and happy but short-lived affair involving young people; traditionally, a literary work depicting heroic deeds (in short, similar to a story of knights rescuing princesses)
But which would you prefer, love or romance? Obviously, love in real life and romance in fictional stories.
Alas, I can feel no genuine affection for anyone nor I believe that anyone would possess true affections towards me. Thus, I indulge myself in romantic movies and novels whose heroes and heroines find their true love in short of a time and the story line going accordingly to satisfy the readers' and viewers' expectations, unlike reality where nothing goes accordingly and carries no guarantee of sweet happy endings but bitter ends.
Isolated from romantic affections and depressed because of it for so long a time, I've finally regained some romantic fantasies - excluding illicit desires - from a classic novel (Jane Eyre) about a plain young woman who fell in love with and loved in return by her stern, harsh employer. Another novel (Vampire Kisses), a modern work quite humorous despite the heroine being of vampiric and Gothic nature. In the first book, she is a much ostracized teenager because of her looks but finds true love in another much ignored soul of her own kind. Sadly, at the end of the book, he leaves abruptly without an explanation - except a note written with 'Because I love you'.
In both books, never once did I not cry when the memories of my rejection and dejection were brought up by the similarities of the story and mine.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Language Apps #2 (Korean, Dutch, Japanese & Spanish)

A crazy vid my sister made me watch. A must watch!!! I laughed 'til my stomach hurt and eyes watered....




Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Experimental 3D nail art


Last night, I bought these 3D nail art materials. It has been so boring painting plain colours but so complicated painting patterns. So, it has come to 3D nail art which is both simple and interesting. 

All you need are:
1. nail polish of your choice
2. transparent nail polish
3. 3D nail stickers and plastic diamond studs (can be found in any accessory store)

an example of 3D nail stickers

normal plastic diamond studs


And here's how:
First, apply nail polish to clean nails and wait to dry. Next, carefully peel nail sticker off plastic and apply to nail according to own creativity. Then, apply a layer of transparent polish. Lastly, carefully and quickly place the plastic diamond stud on nail before the transparent polish dries. 

One of the finished results

Things that happened in November - in bullet list form


  • 2nd Nov - went to the Hitz Birthday Invasion and came out sweating and tired like I had ran a marathon in my sleep. I discovered that I liked the local bands like Relent and Daytime Drama but I least liked Arabyrd because she was like an annoying Malaysian version of Nicki Minaj - and I hate Nicki Minaj. Other than that, Greyson Chance's voice started to change which made me not enjoy his perfomance but he still did a really awesome performance of Leila
  • 5th Nov - no school but spent the whole day in extra class with Miss Angie to finish our Physics syllabus.
  • 7th Nov - broke up with my 2nd ex
  • 8th Nov - last day of school and it kind of sucked because I was sort of alone in class without Amy.
  • 12th Nov - first day of everyday music class - for practicing purposes. Saw Harrison being reckless when he spotted me on the side of the road by not looking at road while riding a motorcycle. I had an awesome haircut, anyway.
  • 14th Nov - "It's complicated" with my 2nd ex
  • 19th Nov - celebrated birthday with an all-meat dinner while my left ear goes deaf
  • 20th Nov - re-painted nails and applied 3D nail stickers, then "broke up" with 2nd ex

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Hitz Kuching Birthday Invasion


The most anticipated event for Hitz.fm listeners and Greyson Chance fans. Excitedly, I'M GOING!!! obviously by Charlotte's invitation. I still can't believe I'll be going to one of the hottest events of the year. Finally, I get to experience going to the most talked about event ever!! Maybe now I won't feel so left out. And I get to wear this cute top I bought last week. ^_^
2nd November, KRIC here I come !!

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Saturday, October 6, 2012

"Runaway Boyfriend" Dilemma

*It's not my boyfriend and this guy didn't really runaway.
~sigh~ I came to school yesterday morning anxiously waiting for a friend of mine to get some "relationship advice". I was so stupid I didn't consider her feelings at the time, I burst out my question to her. At that moment, I sensed some disturbance in her. Then, I saw tears in her eyes. I felt so insensitive and stupid as soon as I guessed what her problem was about.
As soon as she gathered her strength, she told me that her boyfriend "ran way". The appropriate situation would be "moved further away". But that's not it. She's fine with him moving further away to get a better job  but what she doesn't like is that he went further away without telling her and left his phone with his friends. It's bad enough that they live far apart, they only meet once a month and her mum despising him. He doesn't have to go away without telling or leaving her hanging on where their relationship stands. He doesn't even have to cut off any contact with her just so her mum wouldn't know anything.
I swear, guys are impossible to understand.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

An old Facebook note to my ex titled "From Me To You with Love" (2011)


You say there's no one else, you say I'm the only one. But tell me this. Tell me why do you cry over her? You say your heart is for me but it seems that it's still for her. I know you want to forget because she broke your heart but know this; you can tell me all about it. Don't hold back just because people say you're like a brat when you cry. I'm not like those people, I'm your girlfriend; the girl you've always called the love of your life. Hell, you can tell me anything and I still won't judge you. I could never want to let you go 'cos your heart is one in a billion. You are like the guy I've dreamt and always imagined of. You are my fantasy, the fantasy that I always wanted to come true. The fantasy that I can feel my soul just thinking about.
You move my soul, enlighten my life and changed me for the better. I want to do the same but you have to let me. I can't do it if you always shut your real self from me. Just so you know, I could never understand you because you don't tell me much about yourself. I can't stand not knowing and not understand you. You make me cry by just being happy because I feel happy when I cry. Especially when I'm crying for you =') I love you. I love you more than I've ever loved any other guy. Because Baby you loved me back. Wether you knew it or not, I loved you since the first time I laid eyes on you. But you were still with her that time and I never knew anything more than your face and name.
Baby, please forget her. If you want my help forgetting her then tell me everything. The only way you can forget someone is talking about it until there's nothing. I don't want you to keep that bad feeling inside. You wanna hurt someone for it, hurt me. I don't care 'cos all I want is for you to be happy even if it means to hurt me. And hey baby, I think I wanna marry you..hehe =D